I saw her: a treasure underneath a
deathbed of flowers, a stone-struck girl with eyelids burst-gasping open
Choking as she struggled to stifle the
explosions of hurricanes in her lungs, still half-alive; no one could blame her
but-
Still “It’s half past time to die”, in
sweet-opera-chorus-song sang they;
Still cried she, “No, no, there’s still
one more thing I have to do…”
--though she was hollow and corpse-pale
already--
(They dragged her to her grave kicking and
screaming, a shallow bone-thin ghost desperate to live--)
Now watch as the Doctor crouches over his
list of things to-do, ignoring the line of people that still want to live
--8 miles now and counting outside his
door. He’s procrastinated for far too long; his trap door is blatantly open.
By now they are spilling past the block
like helpless ants, and I already
know he will not come out tonight. As a
patient sentry outside his window, futile and polite, I can’t help but
wonder if anyone realizes that he is
nothing but a wingless loser hiding in a nest dropped on the ground, (due
to his loveless mother no doubt),
and no more a savior than the least of them. Funnily enough no one noticed me
slip out the back door, more alive than all of them—
Oh, but you didn’t see them crying out as
they clawed at the windows, a scratch for everyone dead one of them--
What a beautiful sight! They fell down
perfectly in a neat pile against his window. I
didn’t have to, though. Really?
I find it’s easier to live
with my nails politely biting into the
palms of my hands, to find the screams enjoyable; don’t
you think it’s easier than keeping your
heart open,
constantly clutching the dead bleeding
seams? Moist wet threads. Disgusting, swollen and broken, but
tolerable with a proper dose of morphine
and a bullet to the chest—Oh my! Is it that time already?
My dear, I’m terribly late, this conversation has already
dragged past noontime and now it is but a
drifting cloud that they
will glimpse at while they lie there [squinting between sweat-swollen
lids with faint recognition]. But
that’s alright. You and I, and all the
rest of Us—surely we will live
just as well without Them. Excuse me! Please open
the door. No, I would not like my RSVP to
be delivered, thank you. Silly, you do
realize that would take all the fun out of it? Not to worry, you will learn in time. The best part is always done
secretly, a sweet, juicy conspiracy
between we who sip tea quietly in the Doctor’s parlor, already
done with the appetizers (stolen from
their pockets, naturally)…You do realize you’ve lived your life eyes half-open?
Feeling queasy, darling? It’s quite understandable, certainly, poppet, he
did say that you were a bit--but—well they
weren’t lying I suppose--but let’s not
fuss over that—you’ve still
got plenty of time left to live
after all--Oh you’re sure you’re not ready
for some scones? Quite sure? Full already?
I can see why, look! You’ve eaten more
than your share already, isn’t that funny? But
why the long face? Don’t worry about it, we all have. That’s why we’re still here. (But
soon you’ll grow to enjoy it, and
pretty soon you won’t think about it at all.) In the meantime do
at least accept this, then, it’s the least
I can do, a growing boy does need something to live
on after all! Skinny little thing. I can’t
lie, it’s really quite alarming how they’ve
never told any of this to you before.
Oh—but look! It’s already
past your bed time, do excuse me. You can
hardly keep your eyes open.
I know this all must sound a bit--but my, that’s an oddly-shaped flowerbed! We’ve already
passed it? Eight times? Really? Funny how
it slipped my eyes. Do look, the crowd has mobbed that poor Doctor’s house--they
certainly did a thorough job of burning to
the ground. Pity about the scones, they were always my favorite…No, they didn’t
leave anyone alive.
Fortunate
we left while we did! No, this isn’t a nightmare, honey, it isn’t even a
daymare—actually, you’d see it was real if you would just open--
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Damn, this is old. Found it while skimming through my files.
A sestina written for my Creative Writing class in senior year.
(Yes, it is as hard as it looks. xD)
A sestina written for my Creative Writing class in senior year.
(Yes, it is as hard as it looks. xD)